Observing....

This evening my nephew came over and was visiting at my house. He was on the computer playing games and I was observing him. He is such an awesome child. He has his days, he has his weeks but he is still awesome.

I was thinking of the life he may have had if he was not placed in this family. The thought that he would be with a no-good mother went through my mind. She has three other children that she does not have custody. Then I thought that it was mean of me to think of her being no-good. She was a good mother. She knew she could not care for him and gave him away to a family that could. In my mind, that is the way it is. I don't want to hear other wise. I don't want to ever hear that the real reason she gave him up was because she was all about her. Well, even if she was she knew with that attitude she couldn't raise him and still did the most awesome thing she could have done. She gave up her own flesh and blood to someone who could give him what she couldn't even if it is no more than she couldn't give love. She showed more love by letting him go to a home that loves him beyond your imagination.

On our drive back to his home , I told him that I love him. He said I love you. I said I love you more. This went on for awhile and he finally won the game by saying he loves me more 80 times. That is a lot of love. I did tell him that I loved him 100 times more. He said that is a lot of love. I said , Yes it is. I am so grateful for that love.

Thank You God for my nephew. I know I post a lot on adoption but it is the most awesome gift I have been given so far , my nephew. I hope to get stable and pursue adopting a child of my own one day.

I Love You More My Handsome Nephew.