Today

I want to share with you the last two days but I am tired, real tired. I will tell you my Daddy was well honored and the salvation message told and heard and hopefully seeds planted.


Well, off to rest. This is the time of night reality sets in and my heart hurts. Not sleeping much at night because of my active imagination knowing he is no longer in the house as a presence to protect even though in last few years he was slow moving,

Some peace today when we went to identify my Dad's grave. My brother's marker had been laid. WE have waited for this for so long. I sent my former sister-in-law a thank you text. It was such a pleasant surprise and gave us such peace.

sad

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/dailypress/obituary.aspx?n=robert-m-sutherland&pid=171980097&fhid=14343

numb

My Daddy went to be with Jesus and my brother today. My heart breaks here . My heart rejoices he is with Jesus and my brother...what a reunion!

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Hmmmh......


not much to say....a lot going on .....im losing my daddy.....in ICU with septic kidney infection, possible pneumonia, low blood pressure, and cant move either leg from knee down....blessed my sister works at hospital and can see to it he has good nurses so we can go home and rest.






I have been at hospital mostly late afternoon to evening because I am keeping my nephew occupied during the day so my sister with her medical expertise can be at hospital. It may look like I don't care.... I do. My cousin reminded me today....you are where God wants you and are gifted. I can not sit all day watching him suffer. My sister is doing what she is gifted at....medical. It works while he is in the hospital. Believe me when neither are not in the hospital, she doesn't help. It has been a long 5 weeks and not getting easier.


Please pray for strength , peace and comfort.

Contemplations

Currently trying to decide and unfortunately experiencing at the same time.....

Is it harder to lose someone suddenly without warning or to lose someone slowly and watch them suffer through life?


I have experienced the first and it was awful. I am experiencing the latter and it is awful.


Today was a whoah is me day. Alot of nothing, alot of thinking, a lot of dazing. A lot of eating because thats what I do.

Tomorrow, I put on my big girl panties and not let what I am currently facing stop what I have accomplished so far with my health, I will get my act together and continue my weight battle.

Please pray for my Dad as his health is failing. He fell again today and took 3 of us to get him up. My Mom is frustrated because she cant help. Just pray.

Excited

I have lost 5 pounds since May 21...making a total of 20 this year. I know that is not a lot but it is to me. GO ME!