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My Daddy went to be with Jesus and my brother today. My heart breaks here . My heart rejoices he is with Jesus and my brother...what a reunion!

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Hmmmh......


not much to say....a lot going on .....im losing my daddy.....in ICU with septic kidney infection, possible pneumonia, low blood pressure, and cant move either leg from knee down....blessed my sister works at hospital and can see to it he has good nurses so we can go home and rest.






I have been at hospital mostly late afternoon to evening because I am keeping my nephew occupied during the day so my sister with her medical expertise can be at hospital. It may look like I don't care.... I do. My cousin reminded me today....you are where God wants you and are gifted. I can not sit all day watching him suffer. My sister is doing what she is gifted at....medical. It works while he is in the hospital. Believe me when neither are not in the hospital, she doesn't help. It has been a long 5 weeks and not getting easier.


Please pray for strength , peace and comfort.

Contemplations

Currently trying to decide and unfortunately experiencing at the same time.....

Is it harder to lose someone suddenly without warning or to lose someone slowly and watch them suffer through life?


I have experienced the first and it was awful. I am experiencing the latter and it is awful.


Today was a whoah is me day. Alot of nothing, alot of thinking, a lot of dazing. A lot of eating because thats what I do.

Tomorrow, I put on my big girl panties and not let what I am currently facing stop what I have accomplished so far with my health, I will get my act together and continue my weight battle.

Please pray for my Dad as his health is failing. He fell again today and took 3 of us to get him up. My Mom is frustrated because she cant help. Just pray.

Excited

I have lost 5 pounds since May 21...making a total of 20 this year. I know that is not a lot but it is to me. GO ME!

Prayers

Well last week was awful but all of us are on the mends.

We went out of town for a high school graduation. In the car on the way to celebrate at a restaurant, my mom complained of pain in her neck and right arm. It was so intense that I had to pull over and call 911. We thought she was having a heart attack, my sister thought a stroke and the paramedics were just casual thinking she just pulled something. Her right arm and leg went numb and essentially she was paralyzed on her right side from shoulder down. The docs were pushing for a stroke diagnosis and to give her the TPA drug for strokes because the time frame was ticking away. My sister didnt like the diagnosis because my mother was mentally fine but slow and no facial paralysis. She pushed for an MRI... The doc wanted to give the TPA and MRI but TPA first... my sister said...nope... MRI FIRST. They rushed her in for an MRI and found a hematoma on the spine. Very rare and very intense. They immediately took her to surgery. The doc and nurse said that if they had given my Mom the TPA , it would have killed her with these clots. Later I will share with you exactly how GOd was working in so many ways that weekend even prior to this situation.

My sister stayed the first two days with her then I returned for the remainder of the stay. When I came home the first two days, I brought my Dad back who proceeded to fall on the way out the car. We found out the next day that his heart defibrillator went off and he had fractured his shoulder. Double whammies!

So that was our drama this week. What was supposed to be an overnight trip turned into almost an 8 day trip.

Mom and I drove the 4 hours home Saturday and everyone is in their rightful place but in alot of pain. I am not in physical pain but an worn out from all this all week and then taking care of them.

SO please continue to pray for healing for them and strength and a peaceful spirit for me.

I promise to share the whole story at a later date.

Can it get worse

YES IT CAN


I am at my breaking point... Dad fractured shoulder last night and needs care at home but I have to leave to go be with Mom...someone has volunteered through Friday... Praise God

Prayer

My Mom needs prayer... she is in hospital, 3 hours from us and is a living miracle today...my sister is with her.

My Dad needs prayer as to dealing with all this with my Mom with his own health issues. He has done over 9 hours travel in 2 days which is way more then he can handle with all the other stress.  He fell getting out of car tonight from weakness but has moved about since then.

Me...cause I am  here with him and am under a lot of stress.

My sister dealing with my Mom...