This evening I was at my cousin's house for a joint birthday party for two of her children. The living room cleared out and I was sitting caddy-cornered to my grandfather. I had been looking at my reflection in the glare in the window and thinking what a mess I was. My hair and I are not getting along right now. It also needs to be colored and/or highlighted again. My stomach was sticking out and my spare tires were being accentuated. I was sitting there thinking , wow you are pitiful. Look at that stomach, look at your fat face in that reflection, your clothes are out of date and non-becoming, your hair is sad. You are one ugly thing right now and you are in a funk and looking uglier and fatter by the day. All of this was in my mind as I looked at my reflection.
All of a sudden , out of the blue, my 95 year old grandfather looked at me and said....
" You sure look pretty tonight. I don't know why tonight you look so much prettier than usual but you really do."
I wanted to cry. It is like God made him say that because only God knows my thoughts.
I hope to remember that in years to come and a special memory of my grandfather and saying what I needed to hear at the moment I needed to hear it.
5 comments:
oh, that was so wonderful for your grandfather to say that! I bet you will remember this comment he said always! sorry you are having some rough times with your self image, jut remember who you are in the eyes of the Lord
(all is fine; I made my private journal just for me only; I didn't like how I was sounding in it for others to see)
betty
Isn't that just how God works! I am sorry to hear you are putting yourself down, but I totally understand. What a beautiful picture you've given me tonight...I agree with Betty- remember who you are in Christ -you are beautiful, Becky, just beautiful!
That kinda brought tears to my eyes. What a tender moment.
Those thought you were having? I have those thoughts too. I'm now working on not doing that, replacing toxic thinking with positive thoughts. It ain't always easy, but that's what I'm trying to do....you should do it too.
Oh what a beautiful post about your grandfather, and ultimately your Heavenly Father speaking through him.
I hopped on over from the comment you left on my blog today- I LOVE adoption stories, too, and I was happy to read about your nephew! Thanks so much for taking the time to share the story!
And know that you aren't alone- we focus on the negatives while others are able to see us more accurately. I am struggling with my chubby belly too, and I do know exactly what you meant and how you were feeling. I hope you're having a better day today! And stop by again any time :) Bethany
That is just beautiful!! What a lovely way for you to get the message that you are truly beautiful.
Remember it. You don't always see the true beauty in yourself, but it's there!
{{hugs}}}
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