Saturday, April 25, 2015

I did it.....

I did it.....I saw my former sister-in-law and I did not give her a piece of my mind. Oh, I wanted to. After over 2 years, she finally gave us some of my brother's belongings. We were the last to receive anything. Nice to know where we stand.

She met us with her new husband at my nephew's game. I did get up and acknowledge her and side hug her. I did not talk much because I do not trust my mouth and what might come out. I heard her tell my sister that she gave this of his to this person and this of his to that person. I sat there thinking  oh how nice , all of these people above us. But instead of letting the devil win with my mouth , I chose to sit away and slowly eat Goldfish to keep my mouth busy.

She stayed the whole game. Her, her husband, my sister and Mom carried on conversations. At the end , she gave us 3 boxes and cried. Everyone hugged her and I stood away. I am dealing with alot of hurt and bitterness with her. She came over on her own, which she has never done, and hugged me.

How do I feel? I dont know. There are years of hurt , lots of hurt and it is hard to let go. I know Biblically what I should do but I am not ready. I am proud of how I was able to be around her and not be ugly.

My nephew did go up to her after being encouraged to hug her. Before we left, he , on his own, walked up to me and just hugged me and wouldn't let go. He is 11 and usually gives side hugs for a second. This was both arms front hug and not letting go. I think it was his way of letting me know, he understands and loves me always. .

I just ask you to pray for peace for our future.

1 comment:

betty said...

Good for you Becky! Wiser to do what you did and be quiet than to say something you would regret. It is sad she didn't ask you guys what you might have wanted after your brother passed and waited so long to give you a few things.