hmmmh

Hmmmh......


not much to say....a lot going on .....im losing my daddy.....in ICU with septic kidney infection, possible pneumonia, low blood pressure, and cant move either leg from knee down....blessed my sister works at hospital and can see to it he has good nurses so we can go home and rest.






I have been at hospital mostly late afternoon to evening because I am keeping my nephew occupied during the day so my sister with her medical expertise can be at hospital. It may look like I don't care.... I do. My cousin reminded me today....you are where God wants you and are gifted. I can not sit all day watching him suffer. My sister is doing what she is gifted at....medical. It works while he is in the hospital. Believe me when neither are not in the hospital, she doesn't help. It has been a long 5 weeks and not getting easier.


Please pray for strength , peace and comfort.

Contemplations

Currently trying to decide and unfortunately experiencing at the same time.....

Is it harder to lose someone suddenly without warning or to lose someone slowly and watch them suffer through life?


I have experienced the first and it was awful. I am experiencing the latter and it is awful.


Today was a whoah is me day. Alot of nothing, alot of thinking, a lot of dazing. A lot of eating because thats what I do.

Tomorrow, I put on my big girl panties and not let what I am currently facing stop what I have accomplished so far with my health, I will get my act together and continue my weight battle.

Please pray for my Dad as his health is failing. He fell again today and took 3 of us to get him up. My Mom is frustrated because she cant help. Just pray.

Excited

I have lost 5 pounds since May 21...making a total of 20 this year. I know that is not a lot but it is to me. GO ME!